I’m not on track with this book.
And I’ve gone from humbled the previous week to annoyed with myself now.
Look at this.
| Week 05 number of words written: | 420 |
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| Total number of words written to date: | 3877 |
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| How I’m feeling about it: | Annoyed |
Maybe I was a bit annoyed by the little parts I actually was writing about last week too:
Pride & Entitlement
Those will get us going, right?
So here was my point – pulled from a time when I was definitely on defense:
Deep down I felt like I had earned my way past whatever kind of bump in the road I was facing.
And because I hadn’t had the framework and tools to tackle it before, I now realize I subconsciously brushed it off as something that couldn’t be that serious. Pride got in the way.
Entitlement piled on top of that.
Having been through some tough stretches in my career and not yet seen the kind of success I had envisioned, I can now admit there was a part of me that felt like I had suffered enough and that I shouldn’t have to carry whatever this was.
The closer I got to realizing this was a real issue, the more resistant I grew to the idea of even engaging with it.
Defense is an invisibility problem first and foremost. You can’t fight what you can’t see.
When you add potential pride and entitlement on top of that, there’s no wonder we don’t always get it resolved.
But right now I need a resolution to these writing woes…
– Joergen
